3:18 p.m. / March 10, 2005 - -
the only change in my life is the location in which i lay
i've found that i like myself a lot better when i am not involved with another person romantically, for the most part. i can be a completed whole by myself. i am not half of one being. plato was wrong. i don't believe that you can find completion in another person, that another person can only add to your life if you're already completed. i like myself better when i am not romantically involved because i am not complete; adding icing to the cake when it's not finished yet is a bad idea.
yesterday i bought food for my hamster and hung halfway off of my bed for hours on end. sleeping so much gives me a headache, but i enjoy it anyhow. at least when i don't dream about work. that is a terrible and cruel trick, to have to believe that i have been at work for hours only to wake up and go to work for hours.
playing spin the bottle with myself is on the agenda for tonight. i might also go lay in the snow.
